Contingency

N. 1 - having something to do when everything else goes wrong. 2 - a different way of doing things besides that of the usual. 3 - the 'oh shit' plan.

I wish I was inspired enough to write good things again. I can't seem to get in touch with my creative side anymore. Nothing seems to reach deep enough lately whenever I have paper within reach. Maybe my imagination is dying with age or being stifled by everything around me.
I don't really know or care anymore. I guess maybe it might have something to do with the apathy. Whatever.
Lately, every day just feels like a chore. Getting up with hardly anything to look forwards to beside a one-way conversation with my parents and an opportunity to dream again.
Dreaming is amazing...it lets my imagination go wild. Sadly...I don't remember many of my dreams anymore. Only the same ones seem to reach out to me now.
I miss your kisses.