Today

Is gonna be the day that I realize I found the truth.
By now, I should have somehow realized what I had to do.
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now.
Back beat, smashed up on the streets, I never really had a doubt.
Same as before, I'd heard it all before but I never really knew just how.
I don't believe that anybody who feels the way I do, how about now?

Well all the words I heard before are binding,
And all the roads I've chose to walk are winding,
There are many things that I would like to change for you
but I donno how.

So baby, will you be the one that saves me.
After all, you're so wonderful.


Crashing words, falling around me like a cacophonous symphony I'd heard a thousand times before. A new chorus sung this time, "She's dominating your life." "Do you think you'll marry her?" "...but all you think about is Devon." Such horrible tunes seem ever-present in this hellish place I must call home. A job, profession, wage-work. I need something to get me green so I can leave this place and expand myself. Expand horizons beyond that of my character, but of my reality and actuality.

"Maybe I don't want you to leave?" Such a sly smile, such a care-free attitude. Yet, so focused and blunt when the situation calls for such traits. Decisive in some cases, apathetic at other times. Stubborn, sure, but to dislike that would be to dislike a trait I've oft admired in myself. No angel for sure, but she's beauty enough for me. Think not much of the wording of my thoughts, but I'd be perfectly content to spend every season with such a diverse person for the rest of my life. Perhaps I babble on insomnia and stress-thoughts. No matter, I'm still infatuated and loving every minute. Let me be young in my love, enjoying every stupid decision and watching every sunrise with the hopes of seeing her again. Let me savor the flavor of spending this year, next year, and the years to come after with such an intricate woman as the one I've fallen in with as of late.
Yet, let me not appear as blind to the problems that will come to bear before us should we continue dating, and as time goes on. Religion, family, currency, and residence, schooling, profession, location, and goals. Yet, aren't this things everyone must deal with at some time? Where some relationships succeed, others may fail. Its about finding one where the sacrifices on both sides can meet and be accepted. Where views can be shared or negotiated, and goals can be matched or accomodated.
Yet, even the thought of horrible yelling matches and long bitter days and nights seem a pleasing aspect. At least I feel that understanding can be reached between the two of us.
Alas, weariness and sleepyness are upon me and I'll leave it at that. I've had a pensive day...
After a couple of hours of being lectured by my parents as if I'm marrying my girlfriend in the near future left me in a thoughtful place concerning our relationship and the constant unknown nature of the future.

I shall do what we all must do.
Live for tomorrow by besting today. Look to the future for what it holds in store for me and any who cross my path.

Goodmorning everyone.