Why must everything
transcend
Rise from the physical and become the emotional regardless of any attempts I make to be
vulgar and vile
Perhaps this is some kind of sign of a deeper meaning to my relationship. Finding something I truly can't
fuck up
By simply fucking up the usual way that I do and I guess it is kind of awkward and strange that I would test things in such a
quick
Way in the hopes of testing some horrid theory that is my biggest fear. Its nice to know that you're not after me now for the same reason
she
Was after we were together for awhile. It felt wrong with her something that was always
rushed
For the sake of having something to be claimed on her to do list. I was little more than the first
notch
On what might soon be a very large belt. Yet we haven't even gone that far and I already feel so
natural
Being close to you no matter what we're doing because you at least make the effort to be closer and more involved with
me
in my life and my interests. So there, take that past decisions and actions. At least you know that I always strive and try and focus on being
better
in every single way I can for you.