To Devon,
We haven't written to each other in awhile. I know it is because we've been busier and life has been coming at us in whole new ways. I know it is because we're trying to save our words for letters that will travel in the mail. First Class, next day delivery letters that will come soon enough. I know it is because of whatever reason that has presented itself.
I wanted to write something for you that was like that peice I'd written to you about your eyes. I know it is still hiding somewhere, I know this because you told me you stashed it somewhere that you wouldn't ever lose it. I wanted to write you something like that one song I wrote you which escapes me when I wrote to you. I wanted to write something to you that would remind you of all the things I wrote to you when we started dating so that you would read this and smile at the way things were again, for just a moment.
I say that last sentence as if things are changing and we're losing each other. The reality is far from that. I believe in some ways we've come to a more realistic concept of each other. I believe we're more in touch with the other than we could have ever boasted back in those infatuitious days. I believe that, in many ways, we're more in love now then we were then. It is logical and practical and I truly believe it.
I've given you all manner of my secrets and as more and more things arise to me at the moment, I try to make sure to tell you of them. I want you to know every facet of me as I learn each thing about myself. Most of these things are spur of the moment realizations. Like the scariest thing that has ever happened to me. I have no idea if I've told you that story yet. If I told you how my brother held me as I curled up shivering in my bed crying in his arms. I don't think I have, I plan to tell you tomorrow...or another day.
I would definitely tell you tomorrow, but I'm worried that it will upset you or become the focus of the day. If I only get to see you for around 2 hours, I don't want to spend it dwelling on that moment. The longest moment of my life, yes, but I still don't want to spend 2 hours thinking about it. No, I'd rather spend it with you.
I don't care if we have sex Devon. I know sometimes it worries you because I seem very pursuant and a lot of the arguements and rough waters we have occur around sex. I want to remind you that I am usually expressing my standing or personal...whatever (I can't think of a suitable word)...concerning solely sex. It may simply be THAT moment, usually it is. Overall, and more often then not, you deliver sex that I find to be the envy of any woman I've ever been with in a sexual manner. You are #1 in all aspects you've indulged in with me. Hands down. My only wish is that I would provide better sex for you...and that I didn't make you sore.
You are my favorite person to talk to, well perhaps you and Gloria. However, I would prefer talking to you over Gloria only because I can express an emotional conversation with you...Gloria really only has intelligent conversations with me...or asks for advice. You, on the other hand, Have intelligent conversations with me and offer emotional support as well as ask for advice. I only compare you to Gloria because...conversationally and topically, she is the only person who is anywhere NEAR you in the conversational aspect. Justen doesn't hold a candle to some of the conversations Gloria and I have had. In comparison...Gloria is hardly a match to the rampant flame you are. I just figured you wouldn't take my word for it on this topic unless I used an example of someone else I talk to. Once again, I can't stress how important a conversation is for me.
I'm glad I met you. I'm glad that we met in a way that exceeded, "Oh, he's cute. Oh, flattery and flirtations. Oh, lets date so we have an excuse to hook up. Oh, wow you're an interesting person too!" No, the way we met was perhaps the farthest from that. It started as a sort of concerned, estranged friendship. The interest in each other's characters and strength of will arose first. Then, after some soul searching and a little fire-side talk time...we decided to try a relationship.
I'm happy that, since day 1, we've done nothing but take the relationship seriously and at a reasonable pace for the both of us. I'm happy that we've managed to come to where we are now. I'm happy to be with you now, and I was happy to be with you then.
I want you to know that I will be happy to be with you tomorrow as well, and I want you to never forget that.
Never forget that I love you. That I would pick you again a hundred times over.
Never forget that I'm slowly starting to make this an extremely mushy internet-blog-letter-thing.
Or that I'm an asshole. That one is important too.
I love you Devon.

-Zack

Fine.
Have fun at the beach.

I'm magic, did you know that?

I can take the best of things, at the best of times, during the best of situations...

And destroy whatever was holding it all up.

It only takes me 5 minutes.

FML